Grief does not end

So it continues. It did not end. Its been placed temporarily aside. Know this Chewyi, you'll come across things like: pictures, sound, smell, places, conversations, that'll bring back the feelings of grief and loss.

Friends will get tired of listening to you again and again, the stories you rehash. You'll feel abandoned but they also have their limits of patience.

When grief comes, it is not just once, the intensity varies. Chewyi, when it hits really hard, just hang on! Sometimes, you'll feel normal and think normally. Other times, you get knocked off your feet by the sudden rush of sadness and feelings of isolation. It's ok Chewyi, you'll be in situations where you are surrounded by people yet feel so left out it hurts. Or something you see, hear, jolts your memory. You will feel the sudden stab of pain. Your thoughts will be disjointed. There'll be times in which you are utterly lost on what you are doing.

And the nights will be the longest nightmare. Weekends too. so fill them up with something. Memories flood back. Been thinking of Geoff, it was great having someone fo cuddle up to at night. It can be very lonely at times.